It's a pain.

THIS IS ON LINE Derpy|Miku|Shally Boys and girls of every age I'm going to share my life story on the internet. It all started on November 2005, the day I joined Internet/Online. I had fun -- both happy and sad times, Making friends and enemies/foes. One day, the year of 2010, on Steam/Valve: I was cyberbullied by a bunch of immature adults. I cried. I raged. I attempted to commit suicide. I had no one to guide me to the right side, until one day, I was told that I was grounded for 3 months. I made real friends, hang out with family... I have forgotten about those days... I rejoined Steam on October 2012. I made new friends and new foes, as always. I eventually had to leave after staying on a certain community for 2 years. I joined a new community, great people and it was fun; Until one day, I resigned because of drama and exams. Came back to visit few months later, everyone told me to leave. Then, I joined a new community (Jcraft). Technically, I was already in that community on 2013. Of course, I applied for admin, And get rejected because of microphone. I disappeared for half a month because of exams; then started all over for 3-4 weeks. I applied again, but of course, none of the staff seen me. And their excuses was "Didn't you just came back?" I played for 3-4 whole weeks, and not one seen me [it's sad]. So I continued to play. Until I lost track of time, And started playing late at night till early morning. I begun to get really grumpy, And sometimes I raged online when I don't usually do. I've raged toward Epic/Pug, He put high sus on me for attempting to trap him. Even though I was nowhere near him, No one trusted me, my traitor buddy put the blame on me. I screamed. I raged. I cried. Everyone told me to stop being a baby. Funny how they rage when they lose, hypocrites. I almost bursted. When I burst, it's not a good thing. I eventually got off, because I could not handle this crap. I went to watch Anime with my younger brother & Sister-In-Law. Yeah, totes, call us weeaboos; Although there's already a term for that: Otakus. I took a 6 hour break, Came back on, but it was already really late. Saw a few good players and none of the troll. I played a good game, and went to bed. Next morning, I played and got trolled once again. But luckily, I didn't rage. I got off again, to avoid seeing that player Until I feel better to face that person. Few hours later, I came back on I had fun a little. May 29th, I raged again. This time, it was stupid. I raged. I cried. I screamed. DARKNESS I have a secret to share, although it's not really a secret since almost everyone I know knows it. When I was about 6 years old, a year before I went to China for vacation. I was seeing things, of course, everyone call these "Imaginary Friends". I was talking and playing with one of them. I didn't know what they meant by "Imaginary Friends", but I asked my parents, when they got me a new puppy. My parents look at me and so did my brothers. They laughed, and asked if my imaginary friend was asking me that. I started to get scared. I turned around to go back to my so-called puppy. The puppy was gone. No where to be in sight or found. Until one day, I saw on the news, the same puppy with the same appearance showed up as dead. But the puppy died 3 nights ago, and I met this puppy 2 nights ago. A year later passed by, the day before I went to the Airport. I met an old Man that would greet everyone everyday "Good Morning". Of course, my first reaction to be nice and say it back too. My neighbors started to look at me funny, then I got this tingling feeling that the man wasn't alive. I ran back home, and sat. Then I forgot that I was suppose to get the mail, that was the whole main reason that I went outside for. I went back out, and I felt something crawling on my legs. It was snakes. I was trembling, luckily these snakes were garden snakes, so they don't bite unless you fight with it. My dad was wondering why I was taking forever, he went out and sees his precious daughter surrounded and wrapped by snakes. He called for my older brother and they both helped me get away from snakes. It wasn't scary, it just felt ticklish. On the trip to China, I haven't enountered a single dead person. But one night, I had this nightmare. The nightmare gave me a trauma and I began to start getting scared of horrors or anything related. I started blocking and avoiding. Because the night when I woke up from the nightmare, I had bruises on my arm that looked like handmarks. But when I told my parents to take a look at my arm, the bruise was gone. And when I came back to Texas from China. I made a vow not to watch scary things or be by myself. Of course, this could also lead to unstable-mentality. THIS IS REAL LIFE Sally Liu------------ Few years later, I have not seen anything. Not a single ghost or anything. Until one year, 2013, they came back. Every nightmare was a near death wake-up call. Until that one year, the bruises, came back. I wondered why now, why me. I started to see things again, The following year, up to even today, I see things and felt things even now. Although I've been punished many times for lying. Grounded over the years, never changed me. I saw a man in my parents' room, A man in suit but his eyes were bright white. The man was in a total darkness, As soon as I turned on the light, The man was gone. My heart started thumping really fast. I turned on all the lights in my parents' room. Checked everywhere for that man. He was no where to be found. As soon as I turned off the lights, I felt something touched my back. I was too afraid to turn around, I quickly ran out, and close the door. Since that night, I always slept with a lamp light on. I hate the darkness. But eventually, I started sharing room with my younger brother. There was no space in the house. My younger brother hate light when sleeping, So of course, we have to turn it off. I started to get scared. But no nightmares came to me for a while. And I haven't seen a single ghost. I slept great, until December 2014, the year I turned 20. The scary things came back, but only through nightmares. The so-called near death was no longer near death. I felt the death, I wasn't able to wake up. I watched myself getting killed. I watched myself getting hurt. I can only be awake by alarm. I started to sweat and cried a little. I just wish it could end... I wish this never happened... I wish... Subscribe to: Post Comments (Atom) Blog Archive ▼  2015 (8) ►  July (1) ▼  May (7) READ ME! It's a pain. Forum ᴼ>ᴥ<ᴼ Jcraft Fragosaurus Rex Who is Derpy?! Watermark theme. Powered by Blogger.